Respect

Last year the Seniors told me, watch out Senior year goes fast.
And it has, but not like any other year.
I always felt that it would be more glorious than it is.
It is really nothing special except that I am graduating.
There is no pomp and circumstance for me. Yes I love saying I'm a Senior.
But I don't feel like one, I don't feel like I belong to any grade.
As a freshman, I felt soooo young compared to all the other kids
and not as a senior, I feel so old. So older than everyone else.
And I don't feel like I'm the person I want to be.
I let freshman get the upper hand and I would have never tried to
do that to a senior when I was a freshman. I gave them
a ridiculous amount of respect, that they didn't deserve just because
they were "the big scary seniors" but now as a senior I feel
like I should get that and I'm not. The underclassmen don't
show me the ridiculous amount of respect I feel I should get just because
I have been in the stinking High School for four years.
I should be less meak, but I'm not.
That will be my March resolution to step up and believe in myself.
To stand up straight and respect myself my commanding respect from others.

-Kathleen